I've decided to move my blog onto a platform which will allow baby vamp to have more content (OOC: both fictional AND related to True Blood/Deborah Ann Woll) and organization features. I'll be keepin' my posterous for commentin' and subscriptions but ALL updates will be here:
http://jessicahamby.wordpress.com
Looks like I've been havin' a good time...
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My last post kind of asked this question, but I wanted to open it up to the floor - what should I write about in my blog?
I know I ain't the most interestin' vampire out there but I'd really love some suggestions... or, ya know, if you wanna send me questions, I can answer them too. I can even tell stories like daddy (BETTER stories, I bet!) if ya want.
OOC (which I like to term 'Out of the Coffin'): I'd like to start expanding my writing a little, offering a newborn's experience on vampire or human situations/quirks. It's also a good way to improve my character and help her grow. I'm also thinking of expanding my blog onto a wordpress site because I prefer the functionality and customization. Thoughts and comments are most definitely welcome!
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I've been feelin' really drawn to music lately. I can find songs that match my mood and can even brighten my night. Hoyt and I joke 'bout The Fray bein' our unofficial band. So I like discussin' my music sometimes. I'm trynna figure out exactly what I can use this blog for - ya know, except for occasional rantin'. Should I do more posts 'bout what I like to listen to?
Lately, I've been listenin' to this artist called Kerli. Her music is wonderful and I find myself listenin' to her tracks over and over on my ipod. This song I wanted to share with y'all is called 'Walking on Air' and I like to play it when I'm feelin' good 'bout my life or need a little inspiration. Enjoy.
Kerli - "Walking on Air"
There's a little creepy house in a little creepy place
Little creepy town in a little creepy world
Little creepy girl with her little creepy face
Saying funny things that you have never heard
Do you know what it's all about
Are you brave enough to figure out
Know that you could set your world on fire
If you are strong enough to leave your doubts
Feel it
Breathe it
Believe it and you'll be walking on air
Go try
Go fly so high and you'll be walking on air
You feel this unless you kill this
Go on and you're forgiven
I knew that I could feel that
I feel like I am walking on air
Yeah
She has a little creepy cat and a little creepy bat
Little rocking chair and an old blue hat
That little creepy girl
Oh
She loves to sing
She has a little gift
An amazing thing
With her little funny eyes of hazel
With her little funny old blue hat she will go and set the world on fire
No one ever thought she could do that
Feel it
Breathe it
Believe it and you'll be walking on air
Go try
Go fly so high and you'll be walking on air
You feel this unless you kill this
Go on and you're forgiven
I knew that I could feel that
I feel like I am walking on air
Flitter up and hover down
Be all around
Be all around
You know that I love you
Go on
Feel it
Breathe it
Believe it and you'll be walking on air
Go try
Go fly so high and you'll be walking on air
You feel this unless you kill this
Go on and you're forgiven
I knew that I could feel that
I feel like I am walking on air
I am walking on air
(Walking on air)
Yeah
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I guess the first and best piece of news is that Hoyt and I are back together. I think we had a really great talk last night - we needed it. We both made big mistakes and we both have to make compromises which we can understand fully now. I glimpsed a moment where he wasn't there and I hated bein' without him. I think that thought alone will make my resolve stronger, knowin' he's waitin' for me and that he wants me. He wants me no matter what I am. In my head, I always thought that the vampire and me were separate things... but they're not. They can't be anymore. It's who I am now. I'm deteremined not to let him down now because I love him too much to let go.
(Did I mention that makin' it up to him was VERY fun? Just... an observation)
I headed back to work tonight at Fangtasia. My regulars always seem to miss me when I ain't there. Saturday nights mean it was packed. Eric was busy 'enthrallin' the vermin' and Felicia was behind the bar. I met up with the new girl, Kawai, before work. She's a lovely girl - very bright, terrific dancer. I can see we're gonna be good friends. Speakin' of new friends, I met a vamp named Alice tonight. It's always nice to meet new faces 'round this area. She got up on stage and danced (wow, she's a great dancer - I suggested she put in an application for a job!). We really hit it off. I can kinda tell she likes the boys, 'specially that Jason Stackhouse. Bein' Hoyt's best friend and all, I'm gettin' to know Jason now. He may be hornier than a handful of frat boys and a few fangbangers short of a buffet, but he's an okay guy. Kind of get the feelin' he's high on somethin'... can't tell what though. Well, ain't my business. I told Jason that if he wanted tips 'bout bein' with any vamp girls, he should talk to Hoyt. I don't want him gettin' drained because of his, ah... inexperience? (Yeah, I know, Jason and inexperience shouldn't be used in the same sentence - my bad!). Anyway, I'm workin' again tomorrow night so we'll see what Fangtasia brings then.
Compton Asylum has been awful quiet lately without Shannon there. That's a long story, one that probably shouldn't be repeated here... But she's moved out, leavin' only Bill, me and Hoyt in the house. Bill's been actin' kind of strange lately and he says there's an important matter we need to talk 'bout soon. Buildin' up suspense isn't fun, daddy. I don't think Shan's gonna be my dayperson anymore, which is totally okay... my mail is kinda all over the place though. There's a stack of stuff she did for me durin' the day that I really don't wanna do at night, given my limited hours. I don't know whether I'll find a dayperson as good as her though. I wish her all the best in her new life and we're still really good friends. Ain't no one can take that away from us.
I guess that's it tonight. I've had a full on kinda week - feelin' exhausted right now. So I'm off to snuggle my boy (which ranks among the top things I like to do with my time). G'night all!
Leavin' you with a song I was thinkin' bout last night.
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I fight with what I am every second of the night. I can look 'round a crowded room and taste how many humans are there on my tongue. For the most part, I can control the hunger. I have TruBlood, I have-had-someone who gave me blood willingly. Someone I made a promise to. But I'm so new and still learnin'... I was shoved off to Eric on my first undead night and ever since then I've been tryin' to find a balance between human and vampire. We have such odd emotions - some don't feel anythin', they're so old. Some feel deeply but shrug it off. Am I damaged? Am I the only one that wants to still feel human? Will I lose it and become worse than what I already am?
He doesn't understand this part of me. He doesn't know this fear I face... even when we're alone together. I could slip up. Twist his neck a little too far, take a little too much blood. I've hurt him once already, what's not to say I won't do it again? It's always this control that keeps him alive. I can't be that girl he can trust every second of the night when I can't trust myself. I can't promise that I'll be that girl who's always in control. He deserves that girl. Not this monster who can bring him nothin' but trouble....
But this monster loves him. It's always been him and always will be.
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Well that lovely maenad popped into Merlottes tonight.
Yeah, wish I was kiddin' too.
Since my lovely daddy has taken off again and I have NO idea where he is, the Maenad's taken an unwelcome interest in my affairs by askin' me for a tribute. Now, me bein' a new vamp = I have no fuckin' clue what that means. Luckily, Victor Madden was close by in Shreveport and was available to negotiate. She seemed to want to 'cause chaos in the bar, wantin' a drunken human of some form. Or, even better, a host of drunken and horny humans. So I did the absolute best thing I could think about - get the bar drunk and horny. It worked, I think. Lots of drunk humans. Jane Bodehoue and Catfish (YES, Hoyt's boss Catfish who still thinks I'm a stripper) got it on in the parking lot. The frat boys found some single women and enjoyed the free beer. Victor took a friend of mine home with him. And Hoyt and I, well *grins* we don't exactly need beer to have escapades of our own in the woods outside Merlottes. There was a point where the Maenad looked like she wanted to hurt Hoyt. I'd die my second death before anythin' happened to him. I hope she enjoyed the energy radiatin' from the bar... I guess the next step is to find her a bull.
Speakin' of second deaths, I'm pretty sure Sam Merlotte ain't gonna be too happy with me tomorrow night. Someone please hide the stakes from him.
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What a night. Insane is the word I'd use to describe it.
It started out okay. I'm fillin' in for Sookie while she's outta town with my boss, Eric, so I was workin' Merlottes with Tara and Holly. Everythin' was goin' okay until the frat boys from Ruston started causin' trouble but we handled 'em. Think they got a bit frightened when they realised they were up against two seasoned fangbanger kickin' vamps and two very pissed off humans. I think it was Francisco who called us the Bad Ass Bon Temps Girls. Hoyt was there so I had my own personal fun tellin' him 'bout the 'specials'... but then his momma came in for a visit. Now, Maxine is a great lady but she sure can be blunt! Started askin' Hoyt 'bout his intentions with me and whether we were bein' 'safe'. Someone didn't tell her I couldn't get knocked up, I guess. There was a little girl in the bar tonight makin' play fangs at me... got me all sad. Hoyt ended up drinkin' five shots of tequila and lickin' the salt off my wrist (VERY fun, I might add) but he was most certainly toasted.
I drove Hoyt home after cleanin' up the bar (we had to sweep 'round Hoyt since he was admirin' the floor again) and we made it up to bed. Then I heard somethin' approach outside. It wasn't good at all - a maenad. She wanted a 'tribute' - which of course involved my very drunk Hoyt. There was no way that bitch was gettin' her hands on my boy. There was no tellin' what she would do to him. She warned me not to be smart with her. I got her to back off but she left me with a warnin' for Bill that she would return and a huge scratch down my arm. It wasn't like other scratches I've had before - it wouldn't stop bleedin' right away - and I was gettin' real dizzy and weak. I guess that was part of her poison. I collapsed on the porch leavin' Hoyt to get me when she was finally gone. Hoyt saw that I wasn't lookin' too good and offered his blood to fix me up. I'm so glad the Maenad left and didn't hurt either Hoyt or Shan. And I'm lucky to have scraped through with just this scratch on my arm. Stings like the bitch that gave it to me. I can't understand why it's not healin' up as fast as it should be. In fact, it should be pretty much gone by now but it's still painful and still barely scabbed over.
Bitch is gonna pay for that.
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After Hoyt and I watched all those Batman movies the other day (which I hadn't heard of before), I'm thinkin' I really like those comic book people. So here's a little sketch of me as a comic book hero!
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